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The Silent Underground

Author: Pronounced Cap-ee-tawn

  • # Why Do I Always Do This?

    I have a soft spot for homelessness and the housing crisis in this country — something we created, or at best allowed to grow under the weight of overloaded minds and selective outrage. So when a gut-punch article crossed my feed today, I felt it.

    No soapbox. That’s not what this is.

    What this is, is me sitting with a question that’s been nagging at me — one I used to think was rhetorical: *Why do I always do this?*

    Do what?

    Take something I’m genuinely passionate about, something I wanted to share with my wife when she got home, and watch it detonate. What started as conversation turned into my stomach dropping when she responded to my proclamation — that stable housing should be as fundamental a right as free speech — with a question. Something like: *What if they don’t work?*

    I exploded. First inside. Then out loud.

    It started with *how can you say you care about people* and ended with me weaponizing a Bible verse — equating faith without action to dead faith — to justify my own tirade. Whoa. WTF? How did I take something I genuinely feel altruistic about and turn it into that?

    Disappointed doesn’t cover it. Ashamed is closer. And instead of stopping, I doubled down — hiding behind legitimate points to cover up what was really just a selfish, dumbass minute of posturing that served nobody. Least of all the issue I claimed to care about.

    My actions moved the needle exactly nowhere.

    I’ll apologize. Even if I’m met with *you always just say sorry and expect me to forget* — no, but that is how forgiveness works. I’ll leave it there.

    Here’s what I keep coming back to: we have to be able to have these conversations. That’s the whole thing. But your convictions on a subject cannot bleed into moments where they don’t belong. How you feel in a moment is just that — a moment. Often completely separate from the right thing to do in it.

    Listen freely. Be slow to speak. Slower than you think.

    And whatever we do — if we do it through love and let that guide it — maybe we move the needle. Maybe just maybe.

  • Your thoughts?

    Your thoughts?

    How has technology changed your job?

    please include your job title or occupation

    My answer-“It’s killed the requirement to physically be present in the city/office or even country in which employer is stationed. It’s offered flexibility but also eliminated no go zones so while it’s increased our ability to interact snd work from anywhere it’s can also at times become a fetter removing the inability to be unavailable.

  • real talk

    real talk

    How often do you say “no” to things that would interfere with your goals?

    my response would be not nearly enough I think a secondary question or rather a responsibility lies unit we can consistently identify these so they can be responded to with an emphatic “no”!

  • how bout you ??

    What do you wish you could do more every day?

    remove any physical limitations & weather being cooperative ; snowboarding! Pic courtesy my OSU college spring break pics -random spur of moment trip to red river and angel fire circa 1998

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  • Thought:

    Thought:

    Describe your most ideal day from beginning to end.

    What would it take to bring it to life?

  • What TV shows did you watch as a kid?

    dating myself here but Greatest American hero earliest

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  • what I carry

    Describe your life in an alternate universe.

    It’s quirky to say the least. Especially when the days quantum entanglement chances are high. I’m always certain to carry my 6d glasses so I’m not accidentally stepping into another dimension while stepping over a puddle. Laugh at me, but I’ve heard it’s happened and it’s rarely easy to reverse or get out. To end the day on the same plane a started is counted a win!

  • The greatest of these

    This isn’t so much a random act of kindness as it is a call to action for us all

    It feels a little cheap writing about something I think each of us is called to do no matter what your beliefs, I can’t imagine inherently being evil or doing wrong can further any movement, as I suddenly look to the side pondering the past 10 years and the accuracy of that statement. However, that aside, blessing someone unexpectedly with the sole intent of love is a powerful statement as much at times to yourself as to those intended to receive the gift. In this time when so many have become numb, watching others become the subjects of cruelty by those tasked to represent, help, and ensure life, liberty, freedom, and the pursuit of happiness. These days we are tasked with immensely more than previous times. Our debt is now greater because the forces which mean to destroy and harm have been allowed to grow and manifest and may consume us all should we allow. So I implore us all to take up the cause, the case for love, an obligation to respect our fellow man (and woman), set an example for the children of this generation to see, because deep inside is a truth we all have, that which is the greatest of all will always be and always has been love. Show some today.

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